Tonight I feel like I am the most alone person in the world. I told the only other possible guy that could have been the father that I lost the baby and he said he had heard. Then had ro calll from his work line so it woud not be on his cell record. I have so much hatred for him right now I do not even know what I would do. “maybe it is for the best” is all he could say. Maybe it is. Why is my heart broken by somone I should have never wanted to begin with? Someone that is just suppose to be a good time. I cried to him like you would someone you trust and care for and he just said he was sorry. My heart sure doesn’t know what it is doing sometimes.